POSITIVE EXPERIENCE' I wanted to share with u guys

[sensitivegayguy]

Hi all

Just the other day I popped into my local superstore and picked up my first ever issue of Gay Times magazine. I say the first because the last time I bought it was when I was about 18/19 years of age. So that was quite some time ago.

I had been for many days wanted to get my copy but kept contemplating how I would get the confidence to do it because of my
'Sardar' appearance despite me having become a lot more comfortable with others knwoing about my my sexuality than back in the days.

So anyway after finishing work I went to the Gurdwara still not being able to do it. Listening to kirtan/simran at the gurdwara I thought to myself I need to do what makes me happy. Seeing others at the gurdwara feeling content in what they enjoyed made me realise that I need to find my contentment.

So hence, I finally got myself down to the store and walked towards the magazine section (I could see it form a distance and was thinking how happy I would be once it was in my hands). But to my horror there was a Singh hovering around that area and I suddenly hesitated. After getting a few other bits, I returrned with the Singh still there! Pretending to be interested in other magazines I finally leapt my arm out to the top shelf and got it with ease.

What made it difficult for me firstly was the fact that this Singh's presence was holding me back. And secondly Gay Times didn't really make it easy for a first time gay sikh buyer! (they had a picture of a semi-naked man given that in last month's issue the guys had their clothes on!! - but doesn't matter I love them). But despite all of this I managed to mentally gear my mind up and shut all these thoughts out of my head.

After paying for it at the checkout when I returned to my car, guys I started to cry. Why? Coz I was so happy that I was finally able to buy it but more importantly I felt a sense of belonging. Also from now on I won't buy any other magazines that I don't really want to!!!

And I pray to God may I keep up this strength and thank him for helping me realise where my contentment lies.


Yours Truly


sensitive gay guy

[veer]

Congratulations Ji and thanks for sharing your story!
With these small steps we are making history and making a difference.
As a gay Sikh you can still live in dignity because we are all entitled to that no matter who we are and we all know that Sikhi does not forbid anything you have no choice in.
Keep on being brave and strong as a real Singh but never be ashamed to let your tears out when it is time for that. Actually your name is quite obvious because we are all sensitive i guess. I think Sikhi makes people sensitive in a way and being gay in another way so we only need to learn how to respect that in ourselves and in others.

[Jalebi Girl]

Hey that's great, that's very brave of you. You should do what your heart desires (as long as it's not hurting anybody) I understand what may appear as such a simple act can turn into a huge feat. Be yourself and enjoy